Identity Crisis

I’m overthinking all of this.

A little over a month ago, I wrote a big long brain dump of a post about how I wanted to change things up and start writing honestly and for myself again. If I were to draw up a “vision board” for this blog, it would be full of cute outfits and beautiful photos and pithy stories and Pinterest-worthy projects. My dream blog is full of flowers and interesting outings. On my dream blog, there is a link to my very own book in the sidebar.

So what is stopping me from building that blog?

Well, me. Obviously.

  • I’m scared of outfit posts because I think I’ll look dumb and frumpy.
  • I’m not posting beautiful photos because I don’t take the time to take beautiful photos.
  • I’m not taking the time to sit down and write or get crafty and creative because, let me be honest, I work full time and I’ve got a baby at home. Mama is busy – and lately, when given the choice between an early bedtime or an hour of writing, I choose my (sweet, sweet) bed.
  • I’m not giving honest snapshots of my life because life is not always sunshine and roses, and I don’t want to come off as whiney or incapable.
  • I’m worried that if I provide a true look at what I’m really like, you guys won’t like me. I know. Total weaksauce. Knock that business off right now, self.

In short, I’m editorializing all of ME out of my blog – I need to get out of my own head.

This post from Brooke: Not on a Diet really resonated with me – and showed me that I’m not the only one who feels this way. I keep feeling like I need to give my blog a “category,” but that I don’t fit into one. Brooke’s perspective reminded me that there is always another option – if I can’t find my category in the menu of choices, then it’s time to create my own category!

The stars further aligned this weekend when my feedly served up Nancy Ray’s post on organizing her home life - it was a great reminder that none of this happens without effort. It takes hard work and deep thought to create the life you want, either at home or on your blog.

The final straw for my kick in the pants was this Dress Your Tech post from designlovefest. I loved the “Make Today Count” wallpaper (pictured below) – it was just the visual that I needed to remind myself that I am in control of all of my hours every day – and I could definitely be doing more to make those hours count.

DLF_DressYourTech

click image to download wallpaper from DesignLoveFest

I know that I respond well when I set goals and hold myself accountable (if I can just make the initial effort to set goals and hold myself to them) – so here’s what I want for this week (both on and off the blog):

  • Plan and publish an outfit post
  • Research and choose a camera to replace my Canon T1i
  • Get back to reading 30 minutes a day
  • Work on my Treehouse iOS track 30 minutes a day
  • Log “Activity Points” on Weight Watchers at least 3 days

I like that this blog is an always-evolving work in progress. I hope you don’t mind all these “process” posts as I figure out what I want from my own little corner of the internet.

8 thoughts on “Identity Crisis

  1. Joey

    I’m going to be honest with you. Back before we were “friends” we took classes together. We were friendly, sure. But we weren’t buddies. But you were intoxicating and interesting. You were contagious. You had an air of confidence of exactly who you were–and it was inspiring. You are still that person. And people LIKE you, I promise you that. Your blog doesn’t have to be anything you don’t want it to be–and the best part is it can be EVERYTHING you want it to be. You don’t need to fit into any category. I had a girl tell me once upon a time that my blog lacked direction and it made her crazy. I laughed. Of course it lacks direction–I’m a 20 something trying to figure it all out. If I had it figured out already, what would be interesting about that? I also assure you–there is no way that you could ever look dumpy or frumpy–got it? <3

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  2. Brooke: Not On A Diet

    YES YES YES to all of this! Do you on here, it’s what the world needs and wants to see. :) I can’t wait to see where you go from here!

    And I agree with Joey, there’s no way you could look dumpy or frumpy….unless that’s the look you’re going for. ;)

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  3. inbackyards

    I love these process posts! I keep a blog mostly for myself, but I still think about these things all the time. Also, I would love outfit posts! (And everything else you’ve said!) Don’t be afraid of your audience, lady–we love all these random parts. They’re real.

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    1. corley Post author

      You make such a good point – you guys have never given me any reason to fear my audience! Thank you for the reminder :)

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